this is art. you will hear a buzzer. when you hear the buzzer, stare at the art. it's all just yellow, cherry, orange paint to me a bunch of zany pictures from tv this frog just won a thousand bucks he put a bowtie on that duck i need someone to tell me what i see you gotta read between the lines of what the artist had in mind maybe it's hard to tell but if you turn it all around, flip it upside down a new perspective to find gotta make the meaning by yourself i need to grasp the abstract, make it something real cast it in concrete 'till it cracks why are all the curtains blue? why am i afraid of you? i need you to tell me what i feel you gotta read between the lines of what the artist had in mind maybe it's hard to tell but if you turn it all around, flip it upside down a new perspective to find gotta make the meaning by yourself how am i supposed to feel? is my heart supposed to flutter? like i'm staring through the window but you're closing all the shutters how am i supposed to feel? (apples, oranges, pears, plums) is my heart supposed to flutter? (kumquats, tangerines, lemons, limes) like i'm staring through the window (avocado, tomato, banana, papaya) but you're closing off (william shakespeare did not exist) closing off (this situation is hopeless) you gotta read between the lines of what the artist had in mind maybe it's hard to tell but if you turn it all around, flip it upside down a new perspective to find gotta make the meaning by yourself you should now feel mentally reinvigorated. if you suspect staring at art has not provided the required intellectual sustenence, reflect briefly on this classical music: [EXTREMELY LOUD INCORRECT BUZ-

I got a sparkling pink heart, wear it like a trademark, it's hangin' on my sleeve 'til I give it away My sweet little pink heart might just be my best part wholly undefeated, it keeps beating in a hundred and one ways, a thumbs-up for a rainy day, now, a warm hug when you're feelin' down , If I see you, I'll be waving, if you're sobbing, I'll be waiting, so you better come around, I'll turn your whole world upside-down Everything started with a bottle of ink, Could have been anything, but had to be pink Stood there for hours with my head in the sink Saw my reflection and her smile started makin' me think how could Loreal and Garnier wash all of my pain away? what if this was every day? what if I could stay like this forever and endeavor to be better to myself, to show that girl the kindness I give everybody else? My pink heart went off like a jump-start she smacked me with compassion like a slap in the face my sweet cherry pink heart just gave me a fresh start without her I'm depleted, uncompleted in a hundred and one ways, a thumbs-up for a rainy day, now, a warm hug when you're feelin' down , If we see you, we'll be waving, if you're sobbing, we'll be waiting, so you better come around, we'll turn your whole world upside-down

went out today the sky reflected red atop the oceans wake forgot the way the sun turns words i say to smoke and flame and I’ll feel much better when I start to see the mountains I’m climbing leaving me and I’ll feel much better when i stop to breathe feel wind twisting through fingers watch moving trees stayed in today haven’t really left since last holiday dawns’s embrace light’s behind the door seep around the frame and I’ll feel much better when I start to see the mountains I’m climbing leaving me and I’ll feel much better when i stop to breathe feel wind twisting through fingers watch moving trees I‘ll wash away orange tinted walls, dance inside my brain novocaine mix to greener hues, live another day (and I’ll feel much better then)

She drinks just like a sailor She’s selfish, she’s a miser You ask her three ex-husbands They tell you they despise her She shifts her eyes from side to side and makes a funny face at you She says: “you can’t hate me; Not unless you love me too” You feel the teacup shatter As she throws it at your head She speculates if anyone Would care if she were dead She cries and rolls her eyes And kisses you and says “you’re lovely dear” And that should be the end of it But she’s being so sincere You’re headed for the exit She demands you stick around You turn around like Orpheus She’s nowhere to be found You close your eyes and calm yourself And wonder “why’d she bail?” It doesn’t really hurt right now But you know it’s in the mail (edited)

down here on earth we follow stars and i don’t know where you are but if you go north you just might make it home steer towards the sun doesn’t really matter which one when everything around is dark maybe just one truth is enough i hope this finds you well and you’re not up there just for us you’re worth the world and more you’ve got forever in store and i may not know your name but i think you can show us both the way home your arc streaks wide it’s big enough to catch the whole sky but when what you see is what you can believe what happens when the nothing meets your eye i know you’re built to last but there’s no pure virtue in that what matters is you are even out among the stars i may not know your face but i think you can point us both the way home not everything that is is made for anything but doesn’t that just make life all the more worth living if we can shape and name the stars there’s really no telling how far we may make our way home down here on earth i’ll follow you i don’t know if you’re a star or just something kinda blue but think you can lead us both home i think that we can make somewhere home

Snow blind Starry eyes Cold horizon Even colder sky Drinking in a deeper shade of blue Take it with you Well meaning Hopeful lies Dreams of all we could become Given the time Turn toward a day devoid of grief I'll take it with me Watch me rise 'Til the edge of the earth erases me from your sight And all we left behind disappears from view Carry me with you

Pleading with myself just to get out of bed why'm I always running all these questions through my head hold my hand a little tighter close your eyes, i'm not on fire if i was i'd burn for you just come to me a little closer gotta tell you, full disclosure i dont know whats left to do i know i always ask for more always crying on the floor trust me, i dont want to be this way so touch my cheek and dry my eyes tell me everything’s alright i promise if you want me to ill stay Pleading with myself just to get out of bed why'm I always running all these questions through my head

Oh hello and thanks for coming It’s strange to see you grown up What are you reading? Social Psychology? What are you going to do with that? Don’t give me the pitch, you should’ve just walked through the door And asked for it The only way you’ll learn is through doing the fucking job That’s not real, it’s an old boy’s club whilst on the other side They’re put there by the bankers and elites There’s the big world and the small world, and they sorta coexist, as a giant fuck-off coin floating around in the abyss Oh wouldn’t you know, oh wouldn’t you know, the world was flat after all Tell me what you’ll do If you were given the reins And you’ll find I decide whether or not you’re right It’s been tried before So don’t you give me that lip The experiment concluded before you’d even had a sip I worked for it I never begged for it I walked in And I sat him down A handshake and suit can do a lot you know Get that dye out of your hair and maybe you could grow Sorry about that, it’s just that I used to believe And then they held us all to ransom What are we all meant to do without their privilege Thankfully they came in and crushed em And let us all go free Though to this day if I hear a short a I soil myself If you want to settle down, maybe vote for something skinny There’s heaps of land, and you all work remote Just get away from here, the council don’t know what they’re doing If houses look like this, why are there junkies on the street But people want them here, people want them here, so the tape stays in the way Tell me what you’ll do If you were given the reins And you’ll find I decide whether or not you’re right It’s been tried before So don’t you give me that lip The experiment concluded before you’d even had a sip I worked for it I never begged for it I walked in And I sat her down It’d help to have a bird and split with her Then again, you don’t look like you would want that So tell me what you would do instead Tell me how you’d save our necks If the world is crumbling Why are we all ignorant? Tell me what you’ll do If you were given the reins And you’ll find I decide whether or not you’re right It’s been tried before So don’t you give me that lip The experiment concluded before you’d even had a sip I worked for it I never begged for it I walked in And I sat him down I asked him if he’d heard what you’d been doing And that I couldn’t believe that my family raised a poof

Whiskey in the bottle Whiskey in the jar Whiskey is an easy out If you aren't going far Pour another tumbler Down another drink The ache of life ain't quite as sharp When you're too drunk to think Whiskey in the bottle Whiskey in the jar Whiskey melt the mask away And show us who we are Whiskey in the belly Whiskey on your breath Whiskey shots it’s bottoms up Let's drink ourselves to death Coffee is for closers Champaign’s for the rich But whiskey doesn’t give a shit If you’re a surly bitch Poison in small doses Acts like medicine A balm to compliment the pills That make me feminine Whiskey in the bottle Whiskey in the jar Whiskey melt the mask away And show us who we are Whiskey in the bottle Whiskey in the jar Whiskey melt the mask away And show us who you are Whiskey in your belly Whiskey on your breath Whiskey shots it’s bottoms up Let's drink ourselves to death

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It's time I got back on the road again, Packed my suitcase and charged my phone Harden my heart and double-tie my shoelaces And head out west to the coast alone I'm moving over the mountains Kicked around like a tin can Don't even have the time to phone in my shorthand Wished I could make the rounds and say goodbyes and au revoirs But my philodendron's wilting in the car, So I'll fax them in This freedom sometimes feels like a mistake, A blessing and a curse, Like winning the grand prize in the sweepstakes And receiving a casket and a hearse I'm moving over the mountains Kicked around like a tin can Don't even have the time to phone in my shorthand Wished I could make the rounds and say goodbyes and au revoirs But my philodendron's wilting in the car, So I'll fax them in

Grey, fingered with flickering threads of light; Silence broken by restless quavers of music. Greyness, music, A playing thought of slumber. And on my lips faintly disturbing fingers, And at my heart love’s hand like a child’s hand Stirring me half awake.

you said that you must be in heaven that i looked just like charlene love is not like channel seven but i didn’t know it at nineteen my replacement has been hired cast in a role you wrote for me to give you everything that you desired just like they do it on tv i was something that you flaunted cause i reflected well on you i was everything you wanted until i wasn’t twenty two may she be forever bridal may she never show her age may you never catch her idle may she never know your rage with the practice, you’ll be better all rehearsal for the part when you planned this to the letter did you always plan to break my heart? does she know the house is haunted? that you built it all for me out in wantirna like we always wanted just like they do it on tv

Strapped for battle, but we didn't start the culture war hexed, oppressed, our very sex begets a life of gore effeminate lurkers, degenerate perverts, we're crashing your servers, we're teaching your daughter to fight for herself 'cause you never deserved her we're the resistance don't need your permission, you don't get to miss this war of attrition if you keep talking shit, put your face where my fist is YOUR TIME HAS COME AND GONE sitting high on a throne, for as long as she's known you've treated her body a thing you own your creed guarantees that her needs are heedless, she'll eat what you feed or starve alone for atonement, lips sealed shut and sewn up, choking down pain to assuage a grown-up, the King of All Things, a man who still brings the love to his kids with a hand of stone This coward demands that she cower in awe of his power, and scour herself of the notion that she could be powerful, too what would you do? Climb up the tower and leap from the roof? pocket a dagger and wait 'til he staggers to wrestle your truth from the brute? I think you'd choose what a child would do and assume that you've earned the abuse YOU DON'T DESERVE THE ABUSE Strapped for battle, but we didn't start the culture war hexed, oppressed, our very sex begets a life of gore effeminate lurkers, degenerate perverts, we're crashing your servers, we're teaching your daughter to fight for herself 'cause you never deserved her we're the resistance don't need your permission, you don't get to miss this war of attrition if you keep talking shit, put your face where my fist is YOUR TIME HAS COME AND GONE you're the ones who led your young astray we're the wolves you fuckers failed to raise you resent us for attempting to survive without guile or repentance we're out here swinging for the fences a revenge so sweet, it's offensive let our voices be the wrenches chucked in the clockwork heart of your pension your offenses are defenseless, and we sentence you to the endless void where your own kids have the good sense to pretend that you never existed. WE WILL NOT SIT IN SILENCE YOU CAN'T CONTAIN THIS VIRUS WE WILL MEET FORCE WITH VIOLENCE IT'S EVER THUS TO TYRANTS

[overlapping] We asked 100 single women their favourite brand of liquorice, number 29 will amaze you Could cryptocurrency solve global warming? Join us at 5 to find out Chinese plane spotted flying over China, could this mean nuclear war? Could NFTs be the secret to protecting your family from critical race theory? They hit the fucking Pentagon! 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4 Another day another war crime turning children into snow You’re poorer than you’ve ever been, profits mysteriously grow All that and more of gory details, keep you glued to your tv But not before our sponsors pray upon your insecurities Don’t you wish you weren’t so ugly, stupid, awkward and afraid Maybe your parents would have loved you if you bought our new champagne Our burgers are all feminists, our soda is depressed Sweatshops breaking laws on slavery still they’ll never get addressed tell you what are sponsors really want to you to believe might not be the truth but we’ve got three chords up our sleeve Fact and fiction, mix the two, you’ve got the right idea shiny piece of plastic reels in bigotry and fear shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda Piles on piles of content specially picked to make sure you don’t close our app Fund research on addiction, always good to have a roadway map Pull to the right, so they’re extremists, but won’t peek behind the curtain If they do, then spread conspiracies so they don’t know for certain There’s more news than ever, more to pick to craft a narrative No longer corporate media, AI now controls the way you live Post what we want, so will your peers, and if you don’t, you’re left behind This artificial beauty crushes you to keep you all in line shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda [overlapping] And of course, I’m not saying I agree with his politics, but he is saying what everybody’s thinking. Better keep up on fashion trends, ladies, because artificial intelligence is the new pink. Coming up right after these messages, is Elmo the newest victim of cancel culture? One benefit of inflation, people work a little harder. If you’re a nonbinary trendsetter like me, you know defending your identity is as empowering as it gets, that’s why I’m partnering with Lockhead Martin, because my pronouns are more than an attack helicopter, they’re the future. And after weeks of debate, congress has finally declared trees unconstitutional. And Elon Musk’s 42nd child Xavier_XOXO_WarCrimes Musk, is currently leading the polls for republican candidate Ladies, do you feel dirty down there? Good. Synergy, Synergy, Synergy, Synergy, Synergy shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda shove it down all your throats see how far it goes won’t stop till you choke won’t stop till you leave the truth at the door they’re invading our sure, it’s all slander pure propaganda

If you wanna be someone, come out and play I’m not ever too lonely to push you away Outside the rain is falling down When it dips below freezing, I’ll get outta town If you wanna stay lucid, keep your eyes on the page Loosen your collar, keep walking in place And soon you’ll look at the sky And when you look down, keep the stars in your eyes Oh honey, it’s not you that they see, it’s just me And they call you my name when they catch us on the street I consider a way to say don’t walk away The person you know isn’t always here to stay

oh i don't want to be sad anymore i'll wear a sunshine carnation - ride my bike to the store and when they ask me why i don't stay home and cry i'll say well now what good is that for i made my decision - i won't be sad anymore oh the ducks in the pond at the park know a thing about love and so does the lean hungry hawk i see circlin’ above and the young ones will grow and they'll soon come to know the cruelty they're capable of well i don't know much but that's what i know about love ba da ba bum well you know i don't want to be sad anymore i'll pick myself up and clean all this crap off the floor and carnations will bloom all over my room from the sorrow i had to endure when i make my decision i won't sit here wishin' got no time for such things i'll go feed my ducklings and every lost hour will be a new flower cause i won't be sad yeah i won't be sad anymore

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Few, maybe very few, will understand what it is that we did here Our screens and their meanings aren't exactly crystal clear Some things will always end up buried where secrets go: In the back of a busted worn out truck to a landfill deep in New Mexico This is only one of several recordings Take it as instruction a lesson a warning Work all night into the morning Recreate the meaning in the performing Press play Let yourself get carried away Circulate the tapes Whatever it takes Don't let what we did here be erased Keep it safe Keep it What you are seeing Isn't exactly what we made What you are hearing Isn't exactly what we played Even a body of work Must eventually decay It's in the act of perceiving that we interpolate They will tell you It's better left forgotten - They're wrong Hundreds of names in the credits Hundreds of hours gone Two hundred sixteen thirty five millimeter slides on the wall 20+ band members Twenty times as many songs Pick one Wait for the click and the hum Circulate the tapes! Circulate the zines Even if no one remains that remembers what they mean Circulate the tapes Whatever it takes Don't let what we did here be erased (Don't let us be erased) Keep it safe Keep it Can you still see me? How much of my meaning has been retraced? All these images replaced by a single static screen Buy the name, kill the process Then write it all off, lest we let it exist Tell me how can all of this be better left unseen? There's always gonna be dark spots in our history, so some one’s got to save the things they think that no one wants to see Maybe sooner or later all we made will have faded all it's architects long gone So take a copy and pass it on

I am of the opinion that people can change But it feels like I’m the only one who thinks that way Come into your own, shed the dead skin away To get chained by what you used to be I am waiting for rulebooks to come in the mail But till then I’ll look back at all of my fails Stare in the mirror, wish for someone but me Regret hits like a wave in the small of my back Oh I have put myself under attack I’ve been pensive for so long Trying to figure out how I’m wrong Saying sorry for everything And nothing at all I am drowning under eyes That I cannot even see But I’m tired of pretending This is how I’m meant to be I’m of the opinion the past’s in the past But people keep saying this freedom won’t last “You’re just running away, you still haven’t changed” So why do I keep crying over everything I’ve done? I am stuck in a loop of hating myself Looking over my shoulder to see if you can tell Every word that I say drives me straight into hell Fall back on old habits and run into the wall again Oh I am at my wits end I’ve been pensive for so long Trying to figure out how I’m wrong Saying sorry for everything And nothing at all I am drowning under eyes That I cannot even see But I’m tired of pretending This is how I’m meant to be I acknowledge I’m an asshole In the natural state of things I have attempted to change for the better To avoid the pain that I bring But it feels like I’m still in high school Like time’s a flat fucking circle Like nothing I do will be good enough For the people I love So can someone redeem me? Make into a martyr Tell ‘em “this is what happens When you go looking for answers” Was I aggressive? Too obsessive? Too wild? Way too much? This is every single thought I have; a constant sucker punch… I am of the opinion that people can change If only they learned how to communicate I cannot get anywhere while your mouth is shut So just tell me what can I do to make it up I have been pensive for so long Trying to figure out how I’m wrong Saying sorry for everything And nothing at all I am drowning under eyes That I cannot even see But I’m tired of pretending This is how I’m meant to be

First time listener, long time caller Feel like a little blorbo looking for their author You are the why behind my being So why does my devotion to you keep on leaving It’s not you, it’s all of them The peanut gall’ry has me condemned. But now I think that if you cared You’d let me know you want me, not just sit | and | stare I’ve never been sure if I can be allowed In your eternal fan club, I’ve been scared ‘Til now You won’t be the one to make me fade away This spite of you’s the reason I will stay Watch me run And glow Watch me as I find my way home

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beetle beetle do you mind think i do transform then swarm that’s what you walked into (gonna be your bathwater baby, you’ll throw me out) beetle beetle refuse to understand elytra weevils all given by wonder’s hand

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In a world of black and white A little color in the trees And a fresh blanket of snowfall so bright Against the darkness of the breeze But by chance there was something in the distance Something brand new And I guess somebody above came to my assistance When my compass led to you I was moving without direction Sacred and profane Loving without affection But you set my heart aflame You were wearing yellow Against cherry red And a splash of orange color on your lips Feathers on your head But then you flew off before I could meet you I guess I was too surprised to follow through But that’s alright because I know I’m going to see you again My compass always points to you I wanted hear you sing Whatever song that may be So I kept singing hymns to you Until your compass led to me You looked in my direction As I looked away But I felt the connection And we both decided to stay You were wearing yellow Against cherry red And a splash of orange color on your lips Feathers on your head

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FUCK! Connections! You don't make any sense. FUCK! Connections! Your clues are really dense. FUCK! Connections! I hate your stupid "jokes". FUCK! Connections! Your existence is revoked. I don't think that you're clever, I don't think that you're smart. You're breaking your own contract from the very fucking start. You think it's misdirection when it's just a lazy trick. I think that maybe it is time TO PUNCH YOU IN THE DICK! FUCK! Connections! You don't make any sense. FUCK! Connections! Your clues are really dense. FUCK! Connections! You really are a bore. FUCK! Connections! I’ll never get all four! *spoken/screamed* But seriously you can't just make up a category like woodwind instruments and then FOUR OF THEM ARE ACTUAL *REED* INSTRUMENTS WHICH IS A *SUBSET* OF WOODWIND INSTRUMENTS BUT ONE OF THEM ISN'T THE MATCH!!! THAT'S JUST BULLSHIT!!!! 
Oh, oh yeah, and so one day, they did the NAMES of mahjong tiles and like, alright, I guess I can kinda see it... although I bet a lot of people are like me and only know the pictograms and not the names, but like... GET! THIS! It wasn't even purple! IT WASN'T EVEN PURPLE!
 Like, seriously, how was I supposed to fucking get that?!?! 
IN CONCLUSION: FUCK! Connections! You don't make any sense. FUCK! Connections! Your clues are really dense. FUCK! Connections! You're too late to be saved, FUCK! Connections! I'm pissing on your grave!

rapunzel, rapunzel let down your friends ain't it familiar? how this story ends rapunzel, rapunzel let down your walls it won’t be long till somebody falls somebody falls fallen by the wayside fallin’ apart half a woman with half a heart waiting for a savior screaming in the dark to fix what’s broken you’ll have to start have to start rapunzel, rapunzel let down your guard i know that first step is real fucking hard rapunzel, rapunzel let down your hair you can’t see clearly from way up there from way up there fallen by the wayside fallin’ apart half a woman with half a heart waiting for a savior screaming in the dark to fix what’s broken you’ll have to start have to start hide your face wilting flower can’t blame them so you blame the tower shield your eyes cry and cower all alone in the witching hour fallen by the wayside fallin’ apart half a woman with half a heart waiting for a savior screaming in the dark to fix what’s broken you’ll have to start

roof on fire in my home caving in to crush my bones making ashes from my face cut some lines and snort away getting high off my decay my pain won’t meet its end today they say this is the only way you ought to know just how we fade fade all the news is saying now it doesn’t matter if i drown but that’s alright, ‘cause i have found everything is just burning down roof on fire in this home caving in to crush these bones making ashes from my face they snort my lines, high on decay roof on fire in my home caving in to crush these bones making ashes from my face snort me up and wish away i can go away, i can go away if you want it, if you want it, if you want me today i’ll burn all day, i’ll burn all day, i’ll burn, i’ll burn, and we’ll all melt away and all the news is making sure it’s my kind you abhor roof on fire in my home caving in to crush these bones making ashes from my face getting high on my decay did you hear what they all say? that this is the only way getting high on my decay roof on fire on display

If someone's messaging you, and you don't know what to do, thumbs up I've got a secret my friends, let me strongly recommend, thumbs up When you dunno what to say, but sure, that sounds okay, thumbs up When I've read what you sent, but I didn't really get it, thumbs up Do you wanna go to the park, get a drink on a lark, thumbs up Someone asks how you are, but your situation's quite bizarre, thumbs up I've been attacked by a shark, and it's starting to get dark, thumbs up did you read what I sent I've been attacked by shark oh, shit, wait, okay help is on the way thumbs up hug emoji ...eyes emoji ..uhhh.. Well, ok this is hardly my fault, and it's still a good emote, thumbs up just remember to read when your friend says they're bleeding a lot!

When they look back here at us as humanity, what will they see? Will they see each of us as individuals, will they see us for who we think we are? Or will they see something else. I don't want to be remembered as a small blip in the expanse of spacetime. I think deep down, you don't want to be either. I think that you want to be big, I think that you want the eons to remember who you are, who you have been, and who you always will be.. I know because it's what I want too. It's only natural.. existence is fleeting and so am I.. but that's the beauty of it. We get to make it whatever we want. I hope you remember that, and don't forget: I'm with you, always, there in the dark